My sister and brother-in-law’s baby was born. They were there with the birth mom in the hospital and held sweet baby “Troy.” But when it was all said and done the birth mom couldn’t go through with it...she decided to parent. We were in Asia when it all happened and it was such a rollercoaster of emotions waiting to hear about everything. When it was all said and done our entire family can still say, “Blessed be the name of the Lord!”"The Lord gives and the Lord takes away. Blessed be the Name of the Lord." -Job 1:21
Here are Heather and Zach’s thoughts from their blog after all was said and done...
“I realize it has been over two weeks since my last post, and most of you know everything "went down" on Mother's Day weekend.
For those of you who don't know what happened, or haven't heard- Mother's Day evening, our birth mom went into labor and she had a precious baby boy on Monday morning the 11th. We got to see her and the baby. I got to tell her how proud I was of her and how much I loved her!
She struggled so hard for the many obvious reasons and cried that whole night.
Tuesday morning was the day we were to sign the papers and bring our baby home... but it proved to be more than she could handle, and decided after even more prayer and tears, that she would parent.
So, we came home.
The word "Brokenhearted" barely scratches the surface of what we felt. But amazingly, we knew that we had done exactly what He had called us to do.
We will always remember her and her boyfriend and that precious baby boy with so much love and happiness for them in our hearts....more than we ever thought we could possess if she had changed her mind.
For two weeks I've wanted to write a post on everything that happened and honestly have been searching very hard for the right words to say. Unable to do so, I found the perfect way, instead, to share my heart through the words of a song my brother-in-law, Jonny, has on his new cd. These seem to be the exact words my heart was searching for...
( Watch the Video )
I can't tell you how many times I've listened to this song these last two weeks!
What I've grasped a deeper meaning of and learned:
1. Is that God-given love, when spent, is never wasted.
2. All the time and energy that was put into prayer was not in vain.
3. GOD IS SO FAITHFUL to His Word and His children. My verse all along has been Isaiah 58:9-11. It says "IF you spend yourselves on behalf of the [oppressed].... THEN- your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like noonday. The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."
When I got home on that Tuesday, I remember telling Zach that I was "spent."
Literally,
I couldn't think,
I couldn't feel,
I was numb.
I had given everything I could give. BUT, God took care of all my needs....and through me...He met some of hers. I truly believe that because I did not hold back- loving her as much as I possibly could, and praying for her as much as I possibly could, God met a need in her life.
She has expressed a desire for us to be a part of their lives! She told her counselor afterwards that she loved us so much that she didn't want us to just go away... She offered to allow us to be in this baby's life to whatever extent we wanted! As to not over step boundaries, I believe that we will stay in touch through pictures and letters. This is such a first hand testament of how God works!
And though the results were not what I wanted- there was so much hurt in not being able to bring him home, God was in this, He worked through this, My family and I were used according to His purpose for this young woman's life- and for the child's life, too.
How could I ask for more?
Thank you God for being so faithful. Thank you for giving me everything that I needed to love this woman and to spend myself on behalf of her. Thank you that she felt your Love through us. You have taken perfect care of our broken hearts and have given us strength to continue on our journey of adoption. You have filled every crevasse, replenished everything that was spent- to overflowing. I love you Father, how could I ask for more?”
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